Distractions

I just woke up from a nap, and I am trying to plan out my day. I don’t have much planned, but I’m trying.

I’m going to spend the day looking over my notes for school and trying to get all of the coding information back into my mind. Maybe I’ll even make some flash cards for myself, I have plenty of index cards on my desk!

I hope everyone keeps pushing forward!

Different Pieces, Same Puzzle

There are many pieces to a puzzle that make up a beautiful picture. There are two main pieces to puzzles: the edges, which frame the bigger picture, and the inner pieces that are a collection of tiny details that eventually all fit together. Without the edges, there would be no structure. Without the inner pieces, there would be no story.

Today, as always, I was talking to that certain someone. We spent a long time talking about what we want in the future. Where I have all these ideas of what I want to do but don’t know where I’ll end up, their end goal is to be happy and will do what it takes to get there.

As we talked about the future, I started to see the edges and the center come together and make a beautiful mess, filled with trips and dreams. A picture is worth a thousand words, and I was left speechless. The details are a bit rough, but I like it that way.

Keeping it Under Wraps

Sometimes it’s hard to look forward. We can’t see past what’s happened before and we try desperately to be in the moment. The fact of the matter is that the future, second by second, is coming and going at a constant speed and we can’t stop it. We sit and plan out our lives and daydream about everything we want to do. In some aspects we do have some input as to where we’ll end up, but for the most part we don’t; we need to try to gain the ability to accept that even though the unknown is scary, it’s quite beautiful.

For a while, my initial plan for life was to rough it on my own. I was going to move to Seattle, invest in a few apartments and once I had enough money, I would go to a sperm bank and make a family for myself. If someone came along and wanted to be apart of it, they could. I wanted to have this all done by 25. Recently, my plans got completely turned upside down. I’m going to be 23 in July, I still live at home and I’m a student. I also know that I will not be going at this alone.

I never thought I would be here, with someone and have so many opportunities. This wasn’t apart of my master plan, but I am so happy that dream got demolished and replaced with this one.

Eventually, I will write about my new plan for life, but I want to keep this dream to myself for a bit longer. I’m still in shock about the whole thing, and it amazes me to the point that just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes (good tears, I assure you).

Sometimes keeping things a secret can be hard, but this has been the easiest thing to ever happen to me,

One of those Days

Today was a day where everything felt slightly off. Nothing went wrong, but nothing was 100% okay. I don’t feel weird, but everything around me does. It’s hard to explain. Maybe I’m just tired.

I got a lot of thinking done… school, my future, life in general. I went into my mind with a few questions and left with more. Some of my questions were answered with day dreams, and others I didn’t have the time to get to. It was interesting, and I’m happy I did it. I kind of have a plan again, which I lost along the way.

Tomorrow is Friday, which means we survived another week! My night will probably consist of work, videos/movies, games, bad jokes and passing out at my computer. I might legally be an adult, but I’m still young enough to be a kid and I will continue to be one until I’m shriveled up and can barely hold a mouse or a controller.

In Search of (Regular) Sleep

My body has a love-hate relationship with sleeping and anything that goes with it.I remember very few times that I can say that I slept through the night and didn’t count the random objects around my room. The worst part is if I get more than 5 hours of sleep at night, I feel completely exhausted and sick when I wake up. Catching up on my sleep is just a dream for me (sleeping pun, but true).

This is where naps come in. A guilty pleasureĀ for most, and an essential for me, naps are the greatest things. If I didn’t take naps daily, I would probably be on autopilot from the time I woke up to the time I went to sleep.

Over the past couple years, I have definitely slept more than I’ve been awake and, as sad as it seems, I’m completely fine with it. I have my best ideas right before I go to sleep and immediately after I wake up. This whole blog is in existence because I ended up staying up all night thinking about new writing ideas. I’m not sad when I’m tired, I’m creative.

Do I wish that I could just have a normal sleep schedule and feel great if I accidentally sleep in? Yeah, sometimes, but I am starting to enjoy my crazy life. I know I won’t be able to keep it this way forever, so I’m going to enjoy it while I can (and I’m pretty sure my cats don’t mind one bit).

I don’t know what I’m actually going to do today. I’m in a lot of pain and it’s wearing me out, but I’m going to try to get something done. I have been watching a lot of makeup tutorials lately, and making a list of all the looks I can try; it won’t been happening today, but I will be picking up on doing my makeup very soon!

Sorry for the post about naps with a picture of one of my kitties. I am truly so exhausted that all my thoughts and ideas lead to sleeping. Hopefully, I will wake up soon and will create or do something amazing!

Happy Monday!

Too Many Ideas

Today was somewhat relaxing, and I had a lot of time to think. I have a habit of starting projects and then forgetting about them, and eventually coming back to them. Pictured above is one of those projects. It’s a keyboard… a spray painted keyboard.

The keyboard was originally going to be a gift for my boyfriend on our one-year anniversary. Since he lives in Australia and I live in the United States, it’s not as easy as going to the other one and exchanging gifts, so I send everything. I ended up running out of time to send it, so we ended up eating pizza, watching movies and playing games. It was really fun, but now I have this keyboard in my room that doesn’t have a purpose. That’s going to be changing.

Today I had a lot of ideas for what I want to do with the site and the project, and that keyboard came up in one of my brainstorms. I will be writing them down in my notebook soon. I have a terrible habit of coming up with ideas and not writing any of it down. I still think my memory is as strong as it used to be so it will take me a while to stop being stubborn and start writing things down.

I didn’t exercise today because I’ve had a terrible headache for hours and that much movement will make it worse. I feel weird not working out, but I think it will be good for my body to rest. I’m actually happy that I feel off because I missed something in my routine because it means I’m getting into it, which is beyond amazing for me.

I really hope this headache goes away soon so I can either sleep or work on something. I am really excited to show you guys what the keyboard is for, as well as everything else I have planned.

I completely blanked on how I wanted to finish this post, so here’s a picture of one of my cats to close this piece:

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Goodnight everyone!

A New Month

January had its ups and downs, but it’s time to say hello to February! Over the past month, a lot of things have changed for me and it’s because I started Rooplixoo. This blog has given me the power and strength to keep going.

When I started this project, I expected this blog to just be about makeup and beauty. As I woke up each day, I kept having new ideas for what I wanted to do and now I’m kind of doing everything. I learned that I can’t keep trying to limit myself. I have a voice in a lot of different areas and I want to share it all.

To be completely honest, I didn’t think anyone would read my posts or even see the site. I now have 27 followers and I want to thank all of you for connecting to this project and inspiring me to keep growing. I didn’t think my thoughts had a place in this world, and all of you proved me wrong. Thank you so much for sticking with me.

This month, I have a lot planned for Rooplixoo. The site will be undergoing a few changes (new theme, new pages and new topics), I will be planning out videos for the future and a top-secret mini project is in the works! I know I will be adding more side projects and goals as I make my way through February, as well as the rest of the year.

I know I’m already on this journey, but it has truly only just started. I am so happy to have this project and I’m beyond grateful for the people who have taken the time to read my writing. I know I don’t have a set schedule for what I’m going to write about, and I’m trying to get more organised with what I want to post, but I kind of enjoy not knowing; it’s like a surprise every single time I sit down to write.

I hope everyone had an amazing January, and has an awesome February!