As I start my journey into 2019, I finally hit my goal of 100 followers! In the beginning, I didn’t think I would even get 10 followers. To know that I’ve reached so many people in a year truly makes me happy.
2018 had many up and downs, and this blog helped me work through a lot. This blog was about getting my life back on track and utilizing what I had at my disposal, but it’s done so much more than that. I’ve gained confidence and inspiration to do what I want to do. I feel like I can be myself and it’s okay that I have emotions and thoughts.
I want to thank everyone who has taken the time to read my work, those who reached out when I was sad, and the ones who pushed me to keep going. All of you have shown me love and gave me a reason to pick myself up over and over again.
I love you all. Thank you.
Over the past x-amount of months, my boyfriend and I have spent hours every day talking to each other. Even if we only have a few minutes to talk, we make sure to call one another. We haven’t missed a day yet, and we don’t plan on it.
In every call, we laugh, talk, watch videos together, and just enjoy being together. There have been times where we just sit together doing our own things, without saying much, for hours on end. It’s comforting to me just knowing that he’s there. Even when I’m at work, we talk (if he’s still awake, that is).
We talk every day, but each call holds memories and love. As sad as I get when we say goodnight and the call ends, I’m still happy that I got to spend time with him.
I’m starting to settle into my new, insane schedule and it’s nice. I have something to do with myself 8 hours a day and it forces me to deal with difficult situations. I was extremely proud of myself today. I messed up a few times, but that doesn’t mean I didn’t try.
I have met a lot of interesting people, both on staff and that come in for coffee, and that never would have happened if I didn’t come to this job. Even the not-so-pleasant ones entertain me. At the end of the day, I am exhausted to the point that I don’t even want to eat and I’m in autopilot, but I don’t dread getting up everyday nearly as much as I thought I would.
I hope everyone had a wonderful day and sleeps well! I know as soon as I’m done writing this, I am going to sleep.
I have the day off from work, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have anything to do. I have a ton of cleaning I need to get done, so that’s how I will spend my day… once I get out of bed, that is!
I’m happy I don’t have to go to work today, but I want to keep moving! I’m really happy that I have all of this energy now.
I had a really good day. Yes I went to work and it was a bit hectic, but one little girl made it all worth it. It was her birthday and she brought in a coloring book and crayons and I told her that I loved coloring. I always interact with the kids that come in. Happy kids = happy parents/grandparents, which means everyone can enjoy their meals.
When this little girl was done celebrating her special day, she came back up to the counter and handed me one of her original pieces and even gave me a hug. This gesture was so pure and innocent, it made me a bit tears. It was just such a sweet moment for me, as are all of my interactions with the younger kids. They have such booming personalities and making them happy brings me joy.
Above is the picture she colored for me, and I hope to see her work in an art gallery some day.
I worked through the weekend, and I am exhausted. Thankfully, I have tomorrow off so I can sleep in a bit. I am so tired, but I am truly proud of myself.
Nothing else really happened except for work and sleep. When I’m more awake, I will write more, but right now I’m going to try to get another hour of sleep in before I have to get ready.
Another early start for me. I feel good this morning. I slept through the night and I feel rested, so hopefully I will make it through the day.
I am still getting used to this new schedule, but it’s a lot easier than I thought it would be. Even though I’m still tired all the time, I’m starting to feel better physically which, in turn, makes me feel better emotionally.
I’ve only been up for a couple of hours, so I don’t have much else to report on! I hope everyone has a great day!
I was worried for a while that I would never be able to work full-time. Between my physical and emotional problems, I didn’t have the drive or motivation to do really anything. Things are different now, though. I’m not depressed as much, and I feel driven to work and get an education. I feel like I can make it.
I have been faced with a lot of pain and misfortune in my life, and I held onto all of that pain for so long that I didn’t have room for anything good to happen. Once I started to let go of it a little bit at a time, things started to look brighter and I knew I was heading in the right direction.
I have goals and dreams now that are beyond waking up and getting through the day. I get up every morning excited to work and do my schoolwork. Knowing that I was able to make it through my past and get to this point has shown me that I can literally do anything.
Today was extremely jolting for me, and I’m glad I dyed my hair when I did! I ended up getting a call today, and I won’t say what it pertains to, but it made my day a lot brighter. I have a big day tomorrow, and my wonderful mother helped me get everything ready!
Outside of that, I did some school work and relaxed. Things are finally starting to fall into place for me, and with that in mind, my confidence in the future has been boosted.
I hope today was great for everyone, and know that sometimes the unexpected can be pretty great!
Here marks the end of another adventure. This weekend, my mother and I packed the car and made our way to New Jersey. It wasn’t as long as I would have liked it to be, but knowing that it won’t be the last time makes saying “see you later” a bit easier.
I am too tired to go into detail about the trip right now. We spent the entire day driving back and getting settled in. I am so happy we took this trip together, and made even more memories that I will hold onto forever.
I promise I will have a more exciting post tomorrow, but I will be heading to bed now. I hope everyone sleeps well!