Today marks the day that I start my CLI project for school. I never thought I would get to this point, but I am very excited to finally be here. I created a page, which will act like a diary of how I’m doing on the project, as well as my thoughts throughout the process.
I have finally gained enough control over my emotions that I’m using them to work for me instead of against me, and doing that was a major feat in itself and I’m beyond proud of it!
On top of this project, I will be getting back into blogging more regularly and I will be starting up my game streams again, so I will be extremely busy and productive!
A bit more of good news… I got a job! I will be starting on the 30th as a barista at the local coffee shop.
I am very happy with how my life is going right now, and I’m happy for staying put and getting to this point in my life. No, this isn’t where I imagined I would be when I was daydreaming about my life when I was in middle school, but I’m proud of the person I’ve become. I’m driven and smart, and I have so much that I want to do.
I hope everyone is having a wonderful day/night, and I will see you all tomorrow!
It’s been a while, and I do apologize. The past month has been a bit hectic, so here I am with some time on my hands.
As of right now, I am currently dying of girl disease (AKA wicked period cramps). I slept at boy’s place until 3PM, got up, came home, did school work and went to dinner with said boy and got sick there… went to his, felt sick again… went home… it was a day!
Now for the events of the past months… During the first month of February, I went to an interview and got hired on the spot! I now work at Ulta Beauty as a beauty adviser and I enjoy it a lot. The best part is that I get to do my makeup more often which means I will be blogging about makeup again! I only work 3-4 days a week which gives me plenty of time to do school work.
Valentine’s Day was great. I worked that day (only 5 hours) and I was surprised to see my boyfriend waltz in to come get me from work. We left and headed to Eat n’ Park (my choosing), and spent the night together. It was really nice and I wouldn’t change a thing about it.
School is going well, I have finally caught up after all the new curriculum was added and I’m a little over 25% through my course. I’ve completed over 40 lessons in less than a week and I feel like everything is back on track.
For the next few months, I will be getting back into writing (on here and on my books), streaming and making videos, and school. I’m really happy with how I’m doing and where I’m headed.
As I start my journey into 2019, I finally hit my goal of 100 followers! In the beginning, I didn’t think I would even get 10 followers. To know that I’ve reached so many people in a year truly makes me happy.
2018 had many up and downs, and this blog helped me work through a lot. This blog was about getting my life back on track and utilizing what I had at my disposal, but it’s done so much more than that. I’ve gained confidence and inspiration to do what I want to do. I feel like I can be myself and it’s okay that I have emotions and thoughts.
I want to thank everyone who has taken the time to read my work, those who reached out when I was sad, and the ones who pushed me to keep going. All of you have shown me love and gave me a reason to pick myself up over and over again.
I love you all. Thank you.
Over the past x-amount of months, my boyfriend and I have spent hours every day talking to each other. Even if we only have a few minutes to talk, we make sure to call one another. We haven’t missed a day yet, and we don’t plan on it.
In every call, we laugh, talk, watch videos together, and just enjoy being together. There have been times where we just sit together doing our own things, without saying much, for hours on end. It’s comforting to me just knowing that he’s there. Even when I’m at work, we talk (if he’s still awake, that is).
We talk every day, but each call holds memories and love. As sad as I get when we say goodnight and the call ends, I’m still happy that I got to spend time with him.
I’m starting to settle into my new, insane schedule and it’s nice. I have something to do with myself 8 hours a day and it forces me to deal with difficult situations. I was extremely proud of myself today. I messed up a few times, but that doesn’t mean I didn’t try.
I have met a lot of interesting people, both on staff and that come in for coffee, and that never would have happened if I didn’t come to this job. Even the not-so-pleasant ones entertain me. At the end of the day, I am exhausted to the point that I don’t even want to eat and I’m in autopilot, but I don’t dread getting up everyday nearly as much as I thought I would.
I hope everyone had a wonderful day and sleeps well! I know as soon as I’m done writing this, I am going to sleep.
I have the day off from work, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have anything to do. I have a ton of cleaning I need to get done, so that’s how I will spend my day… once I get out of bed, that is!
I’m happy I don’t have to go to work today, but I want to keep moving! I’m really happy that I have all of this energy now.
I had a really good day. Yes I went to work and it was a bit hectic, but one little girl made it all worth it. It was her birthday and she brought in a coloring book and crayons and I told her that I loved coloring. I always interact with the kids that come in. Happy kids = happy parents/grandparents, which means everyone can enjoy their meals.
When this little girl was done celebrating her special day, she came back up to the counter and handed me one of her original pieces and even gave me a hug. This gesture was so pure and innocent, it made me a bit tears. It was just such a sweet moment for me, as are all of my interactions with the younger kids. They have such booming personalities and making them happy brings me joy.
Above is the picture she colored for me, and I hope to see her work in an art gallery some day.
I worked through the weekend, and I am exhausted. Thankfully, I have tomorrow off so I can sleep in a bit. I am so tired, but I am truly proud of myself.
Nothing else really happened except for work and sleep. When I’m more awake, I will write more, but right now I’m going to try to get another hour of sleep in before I have to get ready.
Another early start for me. I feel good this morning. I slept through the night and I feel rested, so hopefully I will make it through the day.
I am still getting used to this new schedule, but it’s a lot easier than I thought it would be. Even though I’m still tired all the time, I’m starting to feel better physically which, in turn, makes me feel better emotionally.
I’ve only been up for a couple of hours, so I don’t have much else to report on! I hope everyone has a great day!
I was worried for a while that I would never be able to work full-time. Between my physical and emotional problems, I didn’t have the drive or motivation to do really anything. Things are different now, though. I’m not depressed as much, and I feel driven to work and get an education. I feel like I can make it.
I have been faced with a lot of pain and misfortune in my life, and I held onto all of that pain for so long that I didn’t have room for anything good to happen. Once I started to let go of it a little bit at a time, things started to look brighter and I knew I was heading in the right direction.
I have goals and dreams now that are beyond waking up and getting through the day. I get up every morning excited to work and do my schoolwork. Knowing that I was able to make it through my past and get to this point has shown me that I can literally do anything.