In a few hours, my mother and I will be heading to New Jersey, so I need to finish packing. We pretty much have everything we need in the dining room, we just need to get it packed and in the car.
It’s about a 6 hour drive, which isn’t too bad considering we moved across country twice. I think it’ll be good for us to get out of the house for a few days. This trip isn’t going to be the happiest one, but we always find a way to smile through the pain.
I hope everyone has a wonderful Friday and a great weekend!
This will be the second time I will be writing a post late, but at least this time it’s understandable. I have been extremely sad and stressed, which means I’m sleeping more. I have had so much on my mind and I can barely function.
Today will be spent on getting everything together for tomorrow and trying not to stress about every little thing. There is still so much that needs to be done, but I know everything will be sorted by tomorrow morning.
Sometimes, it’s good to go back to a simpler time. For me, that meant making a terrible blanket fort, cookies and watching YouTube videos. I have been very stressed lately, to the point that it was causing physical pain and I needed to try to contain it before it got out of hand.
At the end of the day, I am out of cookies and almost out of stress. I am amazed how much something so simple helped so much. I think from now on, every Friday will be Blanket Fort Day. If I can do something that alleviates some of my emotional pains, I will.
Overall, my Friday was very relaxing and I’m happy I made my shitty, one-blanket blanket fort. I cried a lot, but it was such a relief to let all of that pain out. I’m coming to terms with the fact that I don’t need to keep hiding how I feel, especially my anger and sadness.
I hope to get a lot of work done this weekend, as my to-do list just keeps growing and I feel like I’m running out of time. I’m going to get things in order and work through it all.
Now that I have a logo, I need to get a new theme for the blog because the logo appears to be the side of my thumb when I try to use it. Hopefully I will be able to find something I like somewhat easily but I have a feeling it’s going to take a while. I can’t wait to start redesigning the website.
I really don’t have much else to report. I will be working and making calls today so, outside of fixing up the blog, I don’t have much to do out of the ordinary. I’m actually happy to have a semi-easy day. I haven’t been feeling well for the past few days so the easier the better.
Since it’s already noon, I’m going head off and hopefully stay up for a while. Maybe I’ll start off by doing some laundry or eating something, but I need to wake up!
I hope everyone has an amazing Tuesday!
Today was somewhat relaxing, and I had a lot of time to think. I have a habit of starting projects and then forgetting about them, and eventually coming back to them. Pictured above is one of those projects. It’s a keyboard… a spray painted keyboard.
The keyboard was originally going to be a gift for my boyfriend on our one-year anniversary. Since he lives in Australia and I live in the United States, it’s not as easy as going to the other one and exchanging gifts, so I send everything. I ended up running out of time to send it, so we ended up eating pizza, watching movies and playing games. It was really fun, but now I have this keyboard in my room that doesn’t have a purpose. That’s going to be changing.
Today I had a lot of ideas for what I want to do with the site and the project, and that keyboard came up in one of my brainstorms. I will be writing them down in my notebook soon. I have a terrible habit of coming up with ideas and not writing any of it down. I still think my memory is as strong as it used to be so it will take me a while to stop being stubborn and start writing things down.
I didn’t exercise today because I’ve had a terrible headache for hours and that much movement will make it worse. I feel weird not working out, but I think it will be good for my body to rest. I’m actually happy that I feel off because I missed something in my routine because it means I’m getting into it, which is beyond amazing for me.
I really hope this headache goes away soon so I can either sleep or work on something. I am really excited to show you guys what the keyboard is for, as well as everything else I have planned.
I completely blanked on how I wanted to finish this post, so here’s a picture of one of my cats to close this piece:
I just finished my nightly workout and I am exhausted. Everything is sore, but I feel surprisingly relaxed. I had to change a couple of the exercises tonight due to existing back problems, but I should get the same results in the end!
Today, I set out to relax and make bullet journals for everything I’m doing. As I searched through my piles of notebooks, I picked the final contenders for the job. I’m really excited to get them all set up and start using them. I have all of my pens ready and a ton of scrap paper to help me plan the layout for each one. Since I slept a lot today, I will probably spend tonight working, relaxing and getting the journals squared away (maybe even play a game or two)!
I’m still a bit stressed from today, but I’m a lot better than I was before. I’m just hoping that everything will be a bit better tomorrow. All I can do now is take it slowly and do my best!
As I continue on my path to bettering myself, I am starting to get mentally cluttered. When I was cleaning up my room, I came across my collection of notebooks (some brand new, others with only a few pages used). I have decided that since I have so many notebooks, that every section of this project will be getting its own journal. The main one is a general one for my blog, then the rest will be for fitness, life, makeup/nails, a habit tracker, etc.
Today has already dealt me a panic attack, so I will first be trying to calm down. After that, I will be catching up on my work and tackling the project of creating a library of bullet journals. Hopefully I will calm down soon so I can’t get some work done, but I’m not going to try to force it.
My mind is blank and racing at the same time, so this post will be kept short. I’m still hoping that this day will turn out alright, so I guess all I can do for now is wait and see.
Since I’m going to be exercising, I figured I would write about how I’m organizing my workout routine. Before I go any further though, I would like to tell you what the posting schedule will be for my blog.
- Mon – Thurs: 1st post between 10 AM – 12:30 PM, 2nd post between 9 PM – 11 PM
- Fri: 1 post between 7 PM – 10 PM
- Sat/Sun: N/A
I’m sure I will fix the times once my sleep patterns are regular, but that’s what it’ll be for now!
Now to dive into my exercise routine. I am using an app called the 30 Day Fitness Challenge, as well as a weekly routine that I found online. I have used this app before in the past, but never for it’s intended purpose. The reason I’m starting to exercise again is because I’m hoping it will help with my depression and anger issues, as well as help me stick to a schedule. I’m also hoping to get back in shape. I’m not out of shape, but I’m not in shape.
I personally like working out from home because I don’t need to worry about dealing with other people and with the workout I’m doing, I don’t need any equipment. I used to go to the gym, but I never really liked working with weights or machines so this is perfect for me. The best part is that since my room is going to be my gym, I’m not restricted to a time that I have to exercise and I can start and stop when I want.
My plan is to do a basic, very relaxed full body workout during the week, and then push myself a bit further with a more intense workout on the weekend. I also plan on starting to eat better. I don’t eat terrible food, but I could stand to have more salad and a lot more water.
I am in no way an expert in fitness, but I want to better myself. The point of this project is to feel better about myself, which includes but is not limited to:
- using my makeup
- wearing all my clothes
- getting my life in order
- feeling better and more confident
I know this project has taken on a life of its own, but I think it’s very interesting to see how it’s changed over each post. It really shows just how many things I want and need to get done, and what a mess my mind is when it comes to trying to organize all of it. For all I know, I’ll want to add another project to my ever-growing list and write about it tomorrow and that will be the new thing I’m obsessed with. I really hope I don’t come up with anything else, but I know I might and I’m prepared to take on whatever else I manage to throw at myself.
On January 29, 2018, Paige put a white board on her wall! Not just any white board… a white board with her new routine on it! I probably woke up an hour ago, but my sleep schedule will eventually get better as I follow this routine. I’m not too worried about getting my sleep on track just yet, I just want to have a set of tasks for each day.
On Saturday, I got to see my second cousin, second cousin-in-law, and I finally got to meet my adorable third cousins! It was really fun and I can’t wait to see them again. Sunday, unfortunately, my depression and anxiety went into high gear and I slept all day. I am still a bit shaky and out of it right now, but I’m going to try to work through it.
Back to the board… I have listed everything that I need to do, and things I need to remember to do throughout the day and the week. I will try to set up a habit tracker today, but that’s not exactly at the top of my list.
After I get back from lunch, I will be settling down and getting to work. Since I woke up late, I don’t think I will be able to do a decent amount of work and get 16 lessons done in school, but I will try!
Even though my nerves are shot and my mind is in a million different places, I’m proud of myself. Just putting the board up on my wall is an achievement for me, and I need to remember that every little thing I get done is good.
I couldn’t find my art supplies! So, in the meantime, pictured above is the place holder. It was created on a free logo maker website. There is good news, though! I finally came up with the perfect logo that will not only cover everything I want to do, but it’s simplistic! I also have all the supplies to make it! I do really like the alien, but not for this project!
I will be staying up again to get the real logo done and have everything prepped for Monday morning. Starting next week, I will be exercising, working, studying and everything else I need to do. I will be running on two schedules: my blog schedule and my daily schedule. They will intertwine and I will probably get lost if I don’t follow it. This weekend will be spent putting the final touches on my blogging schedule and preparing for the new week.
Tomorrow, I think I’m going to break out my flat-iron and see how straight I can get my hair. I have wavy/curly, thick hair which has been dyed my natural color. I used to be able to get my hair pin-straight in high school, but I got lazy and stopped caring about what people thought of my hair. I think it will be fun to see what I look like now with straightened hair, and how long it actually is. I’ve been trying to grow my hair out again because I miss my long hair, but I’m starting to become impatient!
I’m happy that I’m moving forward and up, and I hope I keep moving in this direction. I know there will be obstacles along the way, but I hope I will be able to get through them a bit smoother now.