Catch Up?

It’s been a while, and I do apologize. The past month has been a bit hectic, so here I am with some time on my hands.

As of right now, I am currently dying of girl disease (AKA wicked period cramps). I slept at boy’s place until 3PM, got up, came home, did school work and went to dinner with said boy and got sick there… went to his, felt sick again… went home… it was a day!

Now for the events of the past months… During the first month of February, I went to an interview and got hired on the spot! I now work at Ulta Beauty as a beauty adviser and I enjoy it a lot. The best part is that I get to do my makeup more often which means I will be blogging about makeup again! I only work 3-4 days a week which gives me plenty of time to do school work.

Valentine’s Day was great. I worked that day (only 5 hours) and I was surprised to see my boyfriend waltz in to come get me from work. We left and headed to Eat n’ Park (my choosing), and spent the night together. It was really nice and I wouldn’t change a thing about it.

School is going well, I have finally caught up after all the new curriculum was added and I’m a little over 25% through my course. I’ve completed over 40 lessons in less than a week and I feel like everything is back on track.

For the next few months, I will be getting back into writing (on here and on my books), streaming and making videos, and school. I’m really happy with how I’m doing and where I’m headed.

A Good Start

Today was the first day using my reward chart, and I didn’t do half bad. I got a couple of hours of work done, and a few lessons. It’s not my main goal for each day, but I think it’s a step in the right direction and I’m proud of myself.

I wasn’t going to give myself the completion heart or flower doodle (I didn’t get stickers today) because I didn’t reach my goal, but I think I earned it because I did my best and I accomplished something. I’m proud of myself and that alone deserves the doodles!

Each day, I will do more work and lessons and eventually I will reach and even surpass my goals for my day-to-day life. I am very happy with myself, and that alone is a reason to celebrate!

I hope everyone had a great Monday and remembers to celebrate the small milestones!

Silver Lining

I was woken up from my nap at 3:40 PM to get some not-so-good news. Once again, the person who was going to be my new therapist cancelled on me only a few hours before the appointment because he just now realized that he didn’t take my insurance. I would have been able to accept this news a bit easier if my first appointment wasn’t pushed back a month and if he sounded even a bit sympathetic.

When I get stressed or upset about something I can’t control, I turn to music. So I turned on my computer and started jumping from song to song. As I was having my own solo dance party, I decided to check my blog and I saw something that I didn’t think I would see for a very long time… I reached 50 followers!

I have been doing this since December 31, and I am still amazed at how many people have enjoyed my content and have taken the time to follow me. Thank you all so much for giving me the drive to keep going and to have confidence in myself. It truly means the world to me.

Slow and Steady

I learned something today… NEVER DO A FULL BODY WORKOUT AT 10 PM. I am happy I forced myself to do it, but I’m definitely going to need it to be a day thing. So the new order is: bathroom stuff, work, exercise, shower, school.

Outside of exercising and doing things other humans do, I left the house and had lunch. I am an attic dweller who forgets to eat, so leaving the house to have food is kind of new territory for me.

Since I got up late today, I lacked a bit of motivation, so I only got a couple of things done on my to-do list. I’m still proud of myself for getting some things done today! I didn’t check off shower, but I did wash off.

For the most part, I’m happy with how today went. There were some problems here and there, but it was overall good. I know I will be sore in the morning, so hopefully getting some rest will prevent a bit of the pain.

A Step in the Right Direction

On January 29, 2018, Paige put a white board on her wall! Not just any white board… a white board with her new routine on it! I probably woke up an hour ago, but my sleep schedule will eventually get better as I follow this routine. I’m not too worried about getting my sleep on track just yet, I just want to have a set of tasks for each day.

On Saturday, I got to see my second cousin, second cousin-in-law, and I finally got to meet my adorable third cousins! It was really fun and I can’t wait to see them again. Sunday, unfortunately, my depression and anxiety went into high gear and I slept all day. I am still a bit shaky and out of it right now, but I’m going to try to work through it.

Back to the board… I have listed everything that I need to do, and things I need to remember to do throughout the day and the week. I will try to set up a habit tracker today, but that’s not exactly at the top of my list.

After I get back from lunch, I will be settling down and getting to work. Since I woke up late, I don’t think I will be able to do a decent amount of work and get 16 lessons done in school, but I will try!

Even though my nerves are shot and my mind is in a million different places, I’m proud of myself. Just putting the board up on my wall is an achievement for me, and I need to remember that every little thing I get done is good.

An Experience

Well, this was something. From drawing all over my eyelid with mascara to my eye shadow brush falling apart, it’s been quite the adventure. I don’t know what’s in this makeup, but my eyes are super itchy right now, so I need to get through this post!

The eye shadow surprised me! It was extremely pigmented and layered really well. The mascara, however, made me sad… it was really dry and flaky, and it was reasonably new.

Sadly, I had to say goodbye to my eye shadow brush. It lived a long life, and applied many an eye shadow. It started with a few bristles, and then the entire top half of the brush fell off. It was a great loss, but I had to move on. Here’s to my fallen brush, e.l.f. eye shadow brush.

I really don’t have much else to report on, but my eyes are watering at this point so I have to go and scrub my face! It was interesting just going with the flow and doing my makeup at 9 o’ clock at night.

Tomorrow is another day, and hopefully I won’t be completely broken out. Here’s to new-ish adventures!

Tired Thoughts

Today, I sat in bed, took care of my pets and took a nap. My mental state isn’t 100% because, on one hand, I feel like I did nothing; on the other hand, I needed to step away and just do nothing.

My life, like many others, is me standing in the middle of a never-ending shit storm holding onto a tiny ball of good. No matter what happens, I hold onto that ball in hopes that one day the storm will clear up and the ball can grow.

If I had to take anything away from today, it’s that the storm that surrounds me is not something I can control, because a majority of the storm is caused by the world around me. I can, however, control that tiny ball of good. I can’t control how people will react or the unexpected, but I can try to maneuver these obstacles with grace.

I’ve come to the realization that I can’t take on every single problem because someone asks me or expects me to. I can’t keep helping people by not helping myself; in the end, I have to live with myself and I am tired of living in a stressed, worn out body.

It will take some time for me to work on this; old habits die hard. As long as I keep working on it, though, it will become easier because I will become stronger.

Tomorrow, I will be writing out my full routine and start fresh Monday morning. I will make time to do everything: makeup, nails, school, work and exercise. If I want a better me, I need to make it.

Keeping it Short

This is going to be a short post, I’m really not feeling well right now and I need to lie down.

I did my nails in the color “soft pink”. It actually went on really well, and it would have definitely looked nice if I actually knew what I was doing! I really like how fast this polish dries and it doesn’t smell too strong. I wouldn’t say it’s the best nail polish I’ve used, but it’s definitely in my top 3 favorites!

If I wasn’t so nauseous, I would write more. I’m going to see if a nap will help and then I will start doing some work when I get up! I hope everyone has an amazing day/night!

Sheer Pink

First day of getting through my nail polish and I didn’t read what color it was. I assumed it was a dull pink, but it was sheer! I know I will have to go through every bottle of nail polish on my shelf, but I was hoping for something a little more exciting that a sheer polish!

left + right

It didn’t turn out too bad; obviously my left looks better than my right, but that’s part of why I’m doing this! I think I’ll call this look “I dipped my fingers in melted candy”. The nail polish went on smooth, and I did do two coats of this in hopes that it wouldn’t be as see-through, but I only ended up making a bit of a mess.

All in all, I enjoyed it! I did think my right hand was going to turn out way worse than it did, so I am pleasantly surprised! I can’t wait to get through the rest of the sheer polishes so I can get into all the fun colors!

With this side quest in my overall goal, I’m going to have to start revamping the site so everything is in a section and easier to find. I will probably start construction over the weekend so I don’t get overwhelmed with everything I need to do!

The lesson I’ve learned from all of this is just because it looks like one color in the bottle, doesn’t mean it will look like that on your nails!

An Interesting Day

Today was an interesting one, to say the least. After publishing my first post of the day, I immediately felt sick, but I powered through to get this done! Above is the before and after of my makeup, which took me about 2 hours to do because I kept spacing out!

After my makeup was finally finished, I went into my closet to get the dress which wasn’t where I thought it was. I didn’t see it on my garment rack at first which lead me to search the back room downstairs. I was becoming frustrated, so I took a deep breath and looked in my closet one more time, and it was staring me right in the face! I have no idea how I missed it the first time, but I’ll blame it on me being sick.

Then, once I had my makeup done and my dress on, it was time for the photo shoot, but what’s a photo shoot without any problems? I don’t know! When I went to turn my camera on, the battery was dead. It’s winter so I didn’t have time to change the battery before the sun went down. I just used my phone.

I decided since it was so nice out today, that I would take my pictures outside.

Snow pics

I was absolutely freezing! I like how the pictures turned out, but never again without pants and a jacket! I also thought it would be a good idea to wear 4-inch heeled boots with ice and snow on the ground! I’m just having an off day, but I got it done! I’m really happy with how my makeup turned out today, especially my lipstick; I guess lip liner is great at keeping lipstick in its place!

Once I finished taking the photos, I ran inside, got back into my pajamas, wiped my lipstick off and took a nap. I love sleeping when it’s snowing or raining, I find it very relaxing to watch.

I really hope I’m not sick, but I know that I am. I’m just not sure if it’s something I caught, or my new medication. I’m sure I’ll find out soon enough! For now, though, I’m going to try to get some more sleep! I don’t really have anything planned for tomorrow, but I’m pretty good at thinking on my feet!