Weird Hours

Ever since I started working, my sleep schedule has become even more messed up than before. I originally told them that I can work any shift on any day, and I can, I just thought I would finally get my sleep back on track.

I like the shifts that I work, especially nights and early mornings. Today I will be working 2 PM – 10 PM with possible overtime because we’ve been short on nights lately. I love how crazy my schedule is because it works with everything I need and want to do.

I hope everyone has a great Friday and a wonderful weekend!

Nap Time

I have a 6 AM start, so I’m going to get in a nap for a few hours before I have to get up and going. If I don’t get to sleep in the next hour, I will probably just stare at the ceiling until I have to get up.

I get off at 2 PM, so I will have the rest of the day to take a nap and get some work done. I got some things done today, but not as much as I wanted to because I needed to get some sleep in!

Goodnight everyone!

Early to Bed

It just hit me that I’m getting tired at a normal hour, which doesn’t happen often for me. I will be working tomorrow through the weekend. I have worked full time before, but it was in an office and only for a couple of months.

I’m happy that I’m getting back on a normal schedule and getting out of the house. I’m extremely exhausted, but it’s good to get away from the computer for a while.

I hope everyone has a wonderful night!

Space Cadet

I started writing this before 12, so I won’t get my third strike for this one! I am so tired that I can’t stop spacing out. I don’t know if I’m sick or it’s stress or a combination of the two.

This weekend started off with me getting new glasses, which I desperately needed. My vision isn’t the best and I keep getting headaches from straining my eyes. I’m really happy that I finally have a new prescription.

I also keep falling asleep on my boyfriend, which I feel terrible about. I don’t mind falling asleep when he’s around, he relaxes me, I just hate that the past few times I have done nothing but sleep. I’m sleeping at night, but I still end up passing out, so I don’t know what’s wrong.

I have a lot I need to do today, including dying my hair, which I will be leaving for the store in a little bit.

I hope everyone slept well and has a wonderful Monday!

An Early Night

I think I found the cause of my writer’s block… I am absolutely exhausted. For weeks now, I have been staying up to all hours of the night and getting maybe 3-4 hours of sleep. It’s finally all catching up with me and I’m in a state of being half asleep.

I’m actually tired at a semi-normal hour, so once I’m done writing this, I will be going to sleep and will not get up until morning. I am actually very exited to be tired at night. It feels like it’s been ages since I actually slept when everyone else in my timezone was asleep. I love being up at night because I do my best work between 11 PM-3 AM, but I can’t keep pushing myself if I’m tired.

I hope everyone has a good night and sleeps well! Goodnight!

Exhausted

I woke up at 3 AM today and I regret not going back to sleep. I don’t know why I woke up then, but hopefully I will make it through the day without taking a nap. I did get some work done, though, and I got to talk to my boyfriend so I’m not complaining.

We’re going to watch a movie soon, but we’re still deciding on what to watch. As simple as watching a movie is, I truly cherish every moment I spend with him. Getting to look over and know he’s there makes my entire day. I just hope that I don’t fall asleep during the movie like I usually do.

I’m too tired to keep writing, but I will hopefully be more awake tonight. Have a good day, everyone!

Mistakes Happen

Today marks the first day that a morning post is an afternoon post. Due to stress, I haven’t been sleeping very well, and I just woke up a little bit ago. I’m extremely upset about this, and I feel like a fuck up. I’m trying to look at it as “shit happens”, but it’s hard for me to do.

My absolutely wonderful boyfriend, though, is telling me it’ll be okay and I trust him. I’m not going to give up, but maybe I should alter my schedule to one post when the sun is out and one post when the moon is out per day.

Everything happens for a reason, and maybe I was meant to write this post now. If I keep telling myself that, I feel better about it. I love this project, and I’m not going to give up on it; this blog has given me an outlet that I never really had before. I feel like I’m apart of something outside of myself and each day I get excited to write. This blog has given me my creativity back, and I’m not going to lose it again.

First Steps to Getting Better

So I ended up going to the doctor today, and got medicine that is working so far… and making me extremely tired. I was able to keep food down, though, so that’s a plus. Sorry if that’s slightly gross, but we’ve all been sick so I feel like it’s okay to give details like that.

I got to have a nice, short call with the one known as “them”, and then I took a short nap. I’m hoping to get rid of whatever bug I have before Easter because there is no way I am skipping out on the food. Having an Italian mother has taught me that holidays are meant for family, friends and tons of food.

I hope everyone had a good day, and that no one has gotten whatever bug is going around.

Restless

I have always taken naps during the day, and been able to sleep at night. I have also been able to stay up for days at a time without skipping a beat. I can change my sleep pattern with a snap of my fingers, as well as being able to survive on 4 hours of sleep a night.

Over the past few days, I have been extremely tired, to the point of only being able to stay up for a couple of hours at a time before being so exhausted that I need to take a nap. I don’t know if it’s from the fall I took last month, if I’m sick or if it’s my stress/depression.

I had a fever on Sunday, but my stress has caused fevers so I can’t say for sure that I have the flu or a cold. I have also felt weak and slightly dizzy. Unfortunately for me, my symptoms could be from all three so the only thing I can do that I know will help is sleep.

Maybe my body is trying to tell me to stop playing games until 2 AM, or maybe I’m finally catching up on my sleep after all these years. I just hope I go back to my¬†normal sleep routine soon.

In Search of (Regular) Sleep

My body has a love-hate relationship with sleeping and anything that goes with it.I remember very few times that I can say that I slept through the night and didn’t count the random objects around my room. The worst part is if I get more than 5 hours of sleep at night, I feel completely exhausted and sick when I wake up. Catching up on my sleep is just a dream for me (sleeping pun, but true).

This is where naps come in. A guilty pleasure¬†for most, and an essential for me, naps are the greatest things. If I didn’t take naps daily, I would probably be on autopilot from the time I woke up to the time I went to sleep.

Over the past couple years, I have definitely slept more than I’ve been awake and, as sad as it seems, I’m completely fine with it. I have my best ideas right before I go to sleep and immediately after I wake up. This whole blog is in existence because I ended up staying up all night thinking about new writing ideas. I’m not sad when I’m tired, I’m creative.

Do I wish that I could just have a normal sleep schedule and feel great if I accidentally sleep in? Yeah, sometimes, but I am starting to enjoy my crazy life. I know I won’t be able to keep it this way forever, so I’m going to enjoy it while I can (and I’m pretty sure my cats don’t mind one bit).

I don’t know what I’m actually going to do today. I’m in a lot of pain and it’s wearing me out, but I’m going to try to get something done. I have been watching a lot of makeup tutorials lately, and making a list of all the looks I can try; it won’t been happening today, but I will be picking up on doing my makeup very soon!

Sorry for the post about naps with a picture of one of my kitties. I am truly so exhausted that all my thoughts and ideas lead to sleeping. Hopefully, I will wake up soon and will create or do something amazing!

Happy Monday!