To All the Van Goghs

Hello everyone, I hope you’re doing well. I’m not going to have a long introduction today, just a few sentences before we jump in. Today, we are going to be talking about all of the creative and beautiful minds out there who might not see how bright they truly are.

When I was 14 years old, I started my first blog. My English teacher at the time inspired me to start writing, so the blog was used as a public file for my work. I mostly wrote poems, but tried my hand at monologues, too, and I was so proud of my writing and the little feedback I received that I wanted to be a writer when I grew up. I finally felt like I had something to offer; I was the weird kid in school, and I was constantly bullied, but writing made me feel like I had a place. Sadly, that dream was cut short a year later at a new school with a new English teacher. She made it a point to tell me that my writing (creative and analytical) was subpar, and that I should look to do something more my speed. I stopped truly writing up until 4 years ago when I started this blog.

There are still times when I sit down to write, that I think back to what that English teacher said to me and I will stop writing. The amount of short stories and poems I ended up deleting or throwing out because I thought, “What’s the point?” and “Why bother?”. So many words left unwritten because someone made me feel like they weren’t worth writing. That’s not right. Everyone has a voice. Everyone has something to say and who are we to tell them to be quiet.

I started this blog 4 years ago and since then, I’ve also started a podcast and a stream. I have interacted with many with you, and the outpour of love and support is truly amazing, but the one thing that sticks out is how many of you have faced similar people who told you that you should give up on your dream or to just stop completely because you’re not good enough. Which brings me to the title of this post…

To all the Van Goghs out there: please keep creating. Keep brightening this world with your thoughts and ideas. Throw paint at a wall, draw squiggles all over your clothes, sing, dance, tell jokes, cook, bake, write, perform… just keep going. Don’t let the world go another day without you and your passions, because even if you think no one cares or appreciates your work, I do. Don’t let everyone miss out on your reality because one person told you to stop dreaming.

2/154

Hello everyone! I’m spending the day writing, but I wanted to take a moment to get the second sonnet posted. I hope you all enjoy it!

When the time comes and the days grow colder,
And there’s only our thoughts to ease us at night,
Will we be at peace when we are older,
And be able to say we cast a light?

Yesterday parted without a goodbye,
Tomorrow comes upon us suddenly,
Today will be nothing but a long sigh,
Unless we can mark each minute greatly.

When we become frail and our thoughts go dull,
With nothing ahead and sorrow behind,
Can we say that the days were great and full,
Or just mem’ries taking up space in mind?

We must do our best to love much and care,
Before we are nothing, faded and bare.

1/154

Hey guys, hope you’re all doing well! I don’t have a lot going on so we’re just going to jump in! The first sonnet is done and I’m really excited to share it with all of you! It’s been a while since I’ve done any creative writing but I’m really happy with how it turned out!

The selfish woes of the unspoken mind,
That cast a shadow down unto the heart,
With nothing more than silent cries to find,
Never to be heard, nor seeking to part.

The words that once were spoken lay weary,
The eyes that once shined grew dull and hollow,
Warmth’s embrace now nothing but a mem’ry,
There’s not much left except to just let go.

With all that strewn out before us in life,
The passing days and weeks that we once craved,
Think if things were diff’rent I’d be a wife,
Instead, I sit with pain that is not saved.

All while wanting to just move on and feel,
But left with nothing as so much to steal.

I stuck to the rules of 10 syllables per line, 14 lines, and the rhyming scheme. It took me about 4 hours between writing and rewriting but I think I did well! Let me know what you guys think, and here’s to the next 153!

0/154

As the year comes to an end, I’ve been coming up with a bunch of smaller projects to carry over into the new year. We have the stream, the podcast and this here blog, but why not add more?

When I was was in middle and high school (year 8 through year 12), I used to write all the time. I would take my creative writing homework and blow them so far out of proportion that my teacher would question whether or not I had done the initial assignment. From countless 13-page poems to 3 separate re-writings of Romeo and Juliet, you could say I was hooked on the craft.

After my first year of college, I lost my way with words and my mind moved from creative to technical to whatever you want to consider what I post now. I miss being able to sit down at my computer and letting my thoughts flow. It was one of my greatest outlets and I want it back.

With that being said, creativity can’t be forced… but it can be pointed in the right direction. One of my favorite assignments from school was when we would read a poem or short story and then have to rewrite our own piece in the same structure.

So my plan is simple: I am going to be going through all 154 of Shakespeare’s Sonnets and then writing my own. I will be doing my best to write them in iambic pentameter, but I will definitely keep to the 14 lines and the rhyming scheme (ABAB CDCD EFEF GG).

I won’t be posting these everyday, most likely 2 a week unless I feel inspired, but I am extremely excited to be doing this. I don’t know if I will just be uploading them as a regular post or if I’ll make a separate section on the website for them, but there’s plenty of time to figure it out!

I love you all, and I hope you all have a wonderful day/afternoon/night!

Getting Back on the Horse

As of late, a lot of chapters in my life have come to an end and I am now left with a huge blank space to start writing the next passage. I realize now how much I’ve lost my way, which is why I’m going to make a true effort to get back to where I was.

A couple of years ago, I wanted to get into streaming games. I never got around to it, and as more time passed, I just dropped the idea. I am extremely socially awkward, but I figured this could have been a way to get me out of my shell. I’ve decided once I get my desk cleared off and get some of my work done, that I’m going to dive in and try it. Why not? I have nothing to lose and it could be really fun!

Then I started to think about all the other projects I let slip through my fingers. I need to start doing everything I want to do, even if nothing comes of it. I am tired of having regrets and what ifs. I am too young not to do all these things.

Next Topic

Over the next week, as I play around with this site, I will be writing about new topics and old ones more in-depth. Everything from mental health to relationships and everything in between. The only two subjects that I will not touch are religion and politics, though I may tell stories of funny encounters I’ve had with the topics.

Moving on, I added a new section called Chitchat. As I grow, this will be a place where everyone can talk and share their opinions or ideas. I found a lot of comfort in sharing my thoughts through writing, and I figured it would be nice to have a place here for everyone to do just that.

I also have yet another secret project underway that I have been working on for the past couple of weeks. Only a couple of other people know about it and I think it would be a good addition to Rooplixoo. I finally have a space to create and free my mind, so I’m taking full advantage of my time and the little focus that I have to keep things going.

Busy Bee

Today and my weekend will be filled with work, school and I will finally be getting around to giving this blog a much-needed remodel. I spent all last night thinking about everything I want to do and how I want to go about doing it.

First of all, I need to update my about page. It’s a bit outdated now that I’m not just focusing on makeup and being girly. After I do that, I will be good to move onto phase two of the update which will consist of a new layout. The layout I have now was good in the beginning but now I need something a bit different.

Once I have Rooplixoo looking the way I want it to, I will be covering a wide range of topics. I have really limited myself with what I write about now and I want to truly put myself out there and talk about anything and everything. With a name like Rooplixoo, I have the freedom to create content about whatever pops into my mind.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Friday and a great weekend!

Mistakes Happen

Today marks the first day that a morning post is an afternoon post. Due to stress, I haven’t been sleeping very well, and I just woke up a little bit ago. I’m extremely upset about this, and I feel like a fuck up. I’m trying to look at it as “shit happens”, but it’s hard for me to do.

My absolutely wonderful boyfriend, though, is telling me it’ll be okay and I trust him. I’m not going to give up, but maybe I should alter my schedule to one post when the sun is out and one post when the moon is out per day.

Everything happens for a reason, and maybe I was meant to write this post now. If I keep telling myself that, I feel better about it. I love this project, and I’m not going to give up on it; this blog has given me an outlet that I never really had before. I feel like I’m apart of something outside of myself and each day I get excited to write. This blog has given me my creativity back, and I’m not going to lose it again.

A Long Weekend

Now that I am about halfway sober from my Easter festivities, I can sit down and write about my weekend. Just like everything else, it had its ups and downs but it was mostly nice.

I went to the craft store to help on my journey of making presents and small surprises for a certain someone. I can’t actually write what’s being made because they might read this, but it’s going to be awesome. As a note to this guy, I will win this game of gifts no matter how much glue I need to use or how many hours I need to spend on Amazon and Pinterest! You’re worth every minute of it.

Sunday was filled with food and, of course, alcohol — wine, almond liquor and coffee. My mom and I ordered everything. We had shrimp, stuffed mushroom caps, lobster, steak, rice… there was a lot of food on the table. I’m surprised that I’m still able to eat with everything we had!

It was probably the best weekend I had (that involved leaving the house) in a while. Now to settle back into my daily routine of sitting at my computer in my pajamas working away and daydreaming.

You Don’t Know

You don’t know this yet, but I love you. From the way that you smile when you get nervous, to the endless dreams we share with each other. It warms my heart to just be in your presence. Your eyes give me hope, and your voice eases me.

You don’t know this yet, but I am head over heels for the future – our future. All the small things we will get to do together, and the countless adventures we will go on. I am so nervous about it, but having you by my side gives me the ability to stand tall.

You don’t know this, but I always have and will fight for you. No battle is too great as long as I have you. No matter what happens, I will do my best to protect you.

You don’t know this yet, but you are me, and I am you.