I feel weird today. I’m not sad or angry, but I’m also not happy. I don’t want to do anything productive, and I’m tired of laying in bed. I guess I just feel off. I don’t know what to do or how I feel, so I guess I will just deal with it.
I think I will be okay, I should be, I just wish I knew what was wrong. Hopefully I will feel better as the day goes on.
I survived my first day at work. My legs and feet are killing me, and I’m surprisingly wide awake. There were a few bumps in the road, but I pushed through and I made it across the finish line!
I was so nervous, and then when I got there I pretty much jumped right into it, with some help of course. I’m not going to lie, there were times where I wanted to go hide in the bathroom and cry, but I’m happy I stuck with it. Not only did I get through my first day, it didn’t scare me off like it probably would have others.
I realized that not only did I get through my first day, but that I’m capable of standing on my own two feet with a smile on my face and enough confidence to keep going. I have a support team, but now I can say that I can actually rely on myself.
I rewarded myself with an $11 bottle of wine, and now I’m going to watch some videos until I pass out. I hope everyone had a great day, and has the strength to keep fighting a good fight!
There’s a first for everything, so here’s the first blog post written before 8 AM! I am pretty much ready to go, all I have to do is get in y work clothes and call an Uber and I’m set!
I’m not as nervous as I thought I would be, but I’m sure that will change as soon as I get there. I know everything will be okay, but until I’m in the thick of it, I will be freaking out a bit.
I have about 10 minutes before I got to get going, so I’m going to leave this here. I hope everyone has a wonderful day!
With a new job, I realized that I will need to move some things around in my day-to-day life so I don’t fall behind. It shouldn’t be too hard to do, because all I need to move around are school, when I write my posts, and time with loved ones.
I already managed to get my sleep on track, which will definitely help in the long run, and I even downloaded a new app to help me keep track of my new journey! I will be printing out calendars (because I need more) so I will have a hard copy as well as a digital one.
I’m not going to lie, I am a bit nervous, but I’m truly excited to have this opportunity and I have a ton of support from those in my life so I know I won’t go through this alone.
I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday, and sleeps well!
I was worried for a while that I would never be able to work full-time. Between my physical and emotional problems, I didn’t have the drive or motivation to do really anything. Things are different now, though. I’m not depressed as much, and I feel driven to work and get an education. I feel like I can make it.
I have been faced with a lot of pain and misfortune in my life, and I held onto all of that pain for so long that I didn’t have room for anything good to happen. Once I started to let go of it a little bit at a time, things started to look brighter and I knew I was heading in the right direction.
I have goals and dreams now that are beyond waking up and getting through the day. I get up every morning excited to work and do my schoolwork. Knowing that I was able to make it through my past and get to this point has shown me that I can literally do anything.
Yesterday, I got a call and now I can finally talk about it. I put in an application to be a shift manager at McDonald’s and about an hour later I got a call to set up an interview for 9 AM today.
Between yesterday and this morning, I went from being excited to nervous to being frantic, and those emotions went in a constant loop until I got there and sat down. I won’t go into too much detail, but the interview went perfectly and I start orientation on Sunday!
I am still extremely nervous and excited, and this will open up so many opportunities for me. I feel like everything is moving in the right direction, and nothing will stop me!
I hope everyone has a great weekend, and a wonderful holiday!
Today was extremely jolting for me, and I’m glad I dyed my hair when I did! I ended up getting a call today, and I won’t say what it pertains to, but it made my day a lot brighter. I have a big day tomorrow, and my wonderful mother helped me get everything ready!
Outside of that, I did some school work and relaxed. Things are finally starting to fall into place for me, and with that in mind, my confidence in the future has been boosted.
I hope today was great for everyone, and know that sometimes the unexpected can be pretty great!
I woke up a bit late, but that’s okay, I still have time to be productive. I actually feel rested so I should be up all day!
I will be going into round 2 of dying my hair, and once that’s done, I will start on getting some work and school out of the way. It won’t be the most eventful day, but for me to feel truly focused enough to say it will be productive is exciting for me!
All I have to do is get through today and tomorrow and it’ll be the weekend! I hope everyone has fun today!
In my last post (or the one before that) I said that I was going to be dying my hair brown. Well, I went to CVS with the intention of buying the same hair dye I bought before, but another color caught my eye. It’s a soft black, and I haven’t had black hair in about 5 years, and I think it’s about time to try it again. The good thing about black hair dye is that I know it will cover the green, blue and brown in my hair.
Outside of changing my hair, I am getting everything in order for a fun weekend of work and little sleep… and some games! I will also be tackling my new laundry mountain, which I’m not too excited about but I’ve run out of clothes to wear and I’m pretty sure I need to wear clothes to leave the house.
I’m happy that I’m keeping myself busy. Keeping busy is the best distraction from my thoughts and I need to keep my mind focused on moving forward.
My hair dried into a wonderful moss-green color, so I will be dying it again tonight. Last night it was a pale green, which I didn’t hate, but this is just terrible.
Other than putting more chemicals on my head later on tonight, I have my normal routine underway: school, work, nap, etc. I don’t have much else to report on, so I guess I’ll wrap it up.
I hope everyone has fun today!
The Change 