Category: Me

Like Riding a Bike

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When I sat down to do my school work today, I thought I was going to have to review my notes for hours. Instead, I picked up where I left off and pushed on! I didn’t do much coding, but I did a lot of reading and took notes on pretty much everything!

When I took my student orientation, the speaker said that we wouldn’t need to take excessive notes. He said that because coding has such a great and welcoming community, that we will always be able to ask for help or find answers on the internet. I, however, didn’t listen and now I take not only title and number every single page in my binder, but take notes on everything, as well.

I can’t retain information unless I say it out loud and write it down. If the lesson I’m working on has a 5-minute video, it will take me around 30 minutes to take notes on it. I write down all the sample codes and shortcuts and make footnotes to help me remember. I’m even talking out loud as I type this. If I didn’t do any of this, my mind would be blank.

I have found that since I started coding and creating again, that my cognitive and analytical skills have become stronger, as well as I have been able to feel a sense of accomplishment with each lesson I complete. Coding essentially gave me a second chance and I’m truly happy.

Tomorrow, I will probably write about my educational journey thus far. It’s truly an interesting story, and I would love to tell it!

Shifting Gears

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This week and next, I’m going to be strictly focusing on work and school. I want to get a lot done and I woke up today feeling driven to do so.

For work, I do data entry for two co-op buildings. I enter everything from maintenance requests to information about the units. It’s not the most exciting job, but I can literally work whenever I want.

For school, my main course is web development, while dabbling in software design, light IT, graphic design, and app development. I have taken on a ton of courses since September, but what better time to do all this than when I have all the time in the world? I enjoy coding; it’s like I’m constantly solving puzzles, and I love puzzles. At the rate I’m going, I’m going to be a forever student and I’m completely fine with this.

Between this blog, school, work and my social life, my time is spent mostly on the computer and it works for me. I enjoy immersing myself in technology, so I made it so I love everything I do.

I hope everyone has a beautiful Monday!

Moving On

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I think I’ve spent enough thinking about how to write this post and I’m ready to open up. Recently, between the 11th and the 17th, I went through a break and eventually a breakup. I spent that week putting everything into perspective and trying to see if I could get past what happened. Obviously, I wasn’t able to. I’m okay now. I no longer hold the anger of an ex, but the rage of someone who can’t stand lies.

To keep things short, there was a trip and a lot of things were kept from me. It goes a lot deeper than that, but I’m not in the mood to go into detail. Now, I know being evasive isn’t technically lying, but not telling the truth is lying. Unfortunately, I needed to suggest a break to get the truth, but at that point, it was too late.

During the breakup, I did my best to stay civil, and I did my best to not place too much blame. I even apologized. Not only did I not get an apology, I didn’t get any closure from him. I’ve had a lot of people  in my life leave with loose ends but, in that moment, I realized that I wasted almost 2 years of my life on someone who I thought I knew.

Like I said, I am completely fine and have moved past it. The fact that I didn’t even get the courtesy of an apology in the end, after all the lies and bullshit, makes my blood boil. Realizing that I had just been in the same situation again makes me mad at myself.

Over the past two weeks, though, I realized that I deserve to be happy, and I did just that. Through everything that happened, I still managed to smile and laugh and enjoy my time.

I walked away a better person, and I’m going to continue to grow and feel better about myself.

You know, I am sorry, though. I’m sorry to myself.

Confidence Boost

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Today was a good day for my confidence. I absolutely love my blue hair and how it makes me feel. Even though my nails and skin match my hair, I feel like I can take on anything that’s thrown at me!

When I was waiting for the dye to take, I had a lot of time to think about everything that has happened over the past few weeks. I thought about everyone in my life and how they have helped me grow into who I am today. I am so grateful for everyone who I hold close to my heart and I can’t picture my life without them.

Since we’re on the note of being happy and grateful for what we have, I reached 41 followers! I am beyond excited to know that this project is continuing to grow and that you guys enjoy my writing. Blogging has always been an outlet for me, and I’m so happy that I get to share it with so many people!

I hope everyone had a wonderful day!

Deep Blue

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I’m now a blue-head girl! I decided to dye my hair blue again because it’s my favorite color, and what better color to get back into dying my hair than blue! I also dyed part of my face, my hands, and parts of my arms!

My hair is still wet, but when it dries I will definitely be taking a ton of photos. I ended up using Splat hair dye, which I haven’t used since high school, but I am extremely happy with how it turned out.

Now, with blue hands, I am off to do some work!

Blondes Have More Fun

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The first step of changing my hair has been taken! I covered my head in bleach and now I’m blonde (again)! I won’t be for long, though, for tomorrow I will be adding the mystery color! The only thing I can say is that I’ve had this color before and I’m very excited to revisit it.

I’ve truly missed the art of dyeing my hair, and I’m happy that I’m back at it! I find it strangely relaxing, and with my anxiety, I could stand to do more things that relax me. I’m not going to lie and say I have the toughest life, but I tend to get overwhelmed which causes me to stress about everything.

Outside of bleaching my hair, I got to spend the entire day with my lovely mom! We went to breakfast and just hung out. I love spending time with my mom, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

I hope everyone had a great start to their week, and here’s to surviving Monday!

Another Change

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Gather ’round everyone and I’ll tell you the story of my hair. It all started when I was 13 years old and my mom was dying her hair. She asked me if I wanted some highlights, and from that moment, I was hooked!

I went from copper blonde to black, and almost every color of the rainbow. For the past few months, I was tired of always having to cover up my roots. Being a natural brunette is a pain in the ass when you want to go lighter. I, however, need to switch it up. I’m addicted to putting on a ratty shirt and putting chemicals in my hair.

I’m going to be bleaching my hair today, but I’m not going for blonde. I already know what color I’m going, but I’m going to keep that under wraps until it’s done!

I’m really excited to be getting back into destroying my hair and standing out. I realized that I need to be myself, and having crazy hair is apart of that.

Happy Monday everyone!

New Look

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I got a haircut, and I couldn’t be happier! I’ve been needing to get one for a while, and originally it was only going to be a trim. I decided to get a bit more taken off the ends, and now I have short hair. I am extremely happy with how it turned out, and I can’t wait to start messing around with different styles… and maybe a few colors, too!

I also went to the doctor’s today, which I have been dreading for a while. I have never liked going to the doctor, though, I don’t think anyone does. I was extremely nervous and completely worried for nothing. I have absolutely nothing (new) wrong with me, and I actually enjoyed the check up. Everyone was super nice and understanding.

Overall, today was good. I got to spend the day with my mom, I got a new look and a great new doctor. I also had a ton of food for dinner, and I’m slipping in and out of a food coma.

I hope everyone has a fantastic and relaxing weekend!

Honesty

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In all walks of life, it is always best to be open and honest. No one is perfect, I know I’m sure as hell not. Sometimes we get afraid, or we feel like we can’t say what we really mean. Pictured above is me with the woman who instilled that in me. She is the most beautiful and caring woman I know, and I’m proud to call her my mom. Isn’t she stunning?

Over the years, my mom has given me the strength to be myself, and enough knowledge to make me extremely stubborn. We’re Italian, so being hard-headed is embedded in our DNA. With being stubborn, I have learned to fight not only for what I think is right, but to stand up for myself.

Recently, I was faced with something that absolutely destroyed me: the loss of trust. Normally, I would just leave and move on, but I decided to sit on it and figure out how I was going to deal with it. Over the past week, I’ve had some time to reflect on everything that happened and come to terms with everything. I haven’t really changed my view on it, but I’m no longer angry or hurt by what took place. It took every ounce of strength my mom gave to get through this.

I want to thank my mom for being there for me, no matter how awful I was being. From name calling to the terrible twos that she’s still trying to get me to grow out of, I am amazed her hair isn’t white! I hope she knows how much I love her, and that even though I’m getting older, I will always need my mom. I will always need to hear her say “cool beans”, and to tell her terrible jokes which I love.

I love you, mama!

How Romantic

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My morning was very relaxing and lighthearted, filled with videos and music. As the day moved into the afternoon, I was surprised with a beautiful candlelit lunch containing the healthiest of foods, because I deserve it. Am I the only one that craves fast food when they’re sick?

After I ate my meal fit for a queen, I did the only sensible thing: I watched Friends and took a nap on the couch with my kitties. By the time I woke up, my mom got home and I wish I could say I spent time with her, but I was so tired that I fell back asleep. She wanted me to go lie down in my room because it’s not good for me to sleep on the couch (I have back problems). Did I listen? Nope, why would I? Why would I listen to something that makes complete sense? No matter how old I get, she will always be my mom and I will always be stubborn. I love you, mama, and I’m sorry that I’m always a pain in the ass!

As the day comes to an end, I realized that I actually had a good Valentine’s Day. I never thought I would say this, but I actually don’t hate this day as much as I thought I did. I learned that not every holiday has to be this big event, it just needs to be fun. With that being said, I will never give up my big Italian Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Valentine’s Day, no matter what you did.