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As the year comes to an end, I’ve been coming up with a bunch of smaller projects to carry over into the new year. We have the stream, the podcast and this here blog, but why not add more?

When I was was in middle and high school (year 8 through year 12), I used to write all the time. I would take my creative writing homework and blow them so far out of proportion that my teacher would question whether or not I had done the initial assignment. From countless 13-page poems to 3 separate re-writings of Romeo and Juliet, you could say I was hooked on the craft.

After my first year of college, I lost my way with words and my mind moved from creative to technical to whatever you want to consider what I post now. I miss being able to sit down at my computer and letting my thoughts flow. It was one of my greatest outlets and I want it back.

With that being said, creativity can’t be forced… but it can be pointed in the right direction. One of my favorite assignments from school was when we would read a poem or short story and then have to rewrite our own piece in the same structure.

So my plan is simple: I am going to be going through all 154 of Shakespeare’s Sonnets and then writing my own. I will be doing my best to write them in iambic pentameter, but I will definitely keep to the 14 lines and the rhyming scheme (ABAB CDCD EFEF GG).

I won’t be posting these everyday, most likely 2 a week unless I feel inspired, but I am extremely excited to be doing this. I don’t know if I will just be uploading them as a regular post or if I’ll make a separate section on the website for them, but there’s plenty of time to figure it out!

I love you all, and I hope you all have a wonderful day/afternoon/night!

New Friends and Old Habits

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Happy Sunday everyone! I hope you guys had a wonderful week, and for those of you state side, a happy Thanksgiving! We are in the 11th hour of 2020, and I’m sure we’re all relieved to have made it to this point and excited to see what 2021 brings us! So let’s just dive into what’s been happening on my end and what you guys can expect moving forward!

In my last post, I mentioned that I had a crush on someone and was finally able to close a chapter that I thought would never end. I’m terrible at reading situations and people, but I’m just going to let it run its course and whether or not something happens, everything will be fine!

Next on the agenda, I have made a few new friends! They are crazy and extremely blunt, and I am honestly happy to have met them and can’t wait to see what insanity ensues. Before this year, I really hadn’t added anyone to my circle since college, so having new stories to hear and old stories to share has been overwhelming and wonderful. With that being said, I’m hoping that a few of them might show their faces (or their voices) on December 1st.

What is December 1st, you might ask? Well, it’s the 3rd birthday of Rooplixoo! Back in 2017, I wanted to start a blog about getting my shit together and being the person I wanted to be. We are now 3 years in, and I am doing pretty much everything I’ve ever wanted to do, and I’m happy.

Enough about me, though. Let’s get into what you guys will be getting! On December 1st at 3PM EST, I will be doing a 12-hour stream over on twitch to celebrate 3 years of this ever-growing project. On December 8th, the podcast will be returning! I am super excited to be able to do this again and to have new people on the show! Next on December 29th, we will be celebrating 6 months of streaming! Finally, on December 31st, I will be smoking my last cigarette. I have been smoking since I was 19 and I’m sick of it.

This year has definitely one for the books, but a lot of good has come out of it. Here’s to the last month of the year! We fucking made it!

A Turn of Events

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Good morning everyone! I hope you all had a wonderful week. My sleep schedule has been finicky as of late, but I believe it to be due to some very interesting events over the past week, and what better way to process it all than to write it on a public platform for all to see! Also, I see we have a few new faces, and I would like to welcome you to Rooplixoo!

I used this year to build and reflect, as well as come to terms with certain chapters from my past. One chapter I struggled to finish was one of an old flame. Two years ago, I walked away from what I thought was my whole world. Since then, I haven’t really felt much for the gentlemen callers who would try and charm me. I thought I was bound to be alone because I couldn’t feel what I was supposed to feel. I didn’t feel butterflies or had a crush. I now realize how ridiculous that sounds.

Recently, I got a weird twinge in my whole body that can only be diagnosed as girl brain. I feel like I’m having an out of body experience – just floating along and enjoying life. I honestly feel like I’m back in school, looking across the room and daydreaming, only to be snapped back to reality when the bell rings. What I’m trying to say is that my eye has been caught, and I’m extremely happy because I now know that I’m capable of feeling something.

Do I know if anything will come from this? No, but that’s okay. Whether something happens or not, I’m just happy that I have finally moved on (and between me and all of you, he’s not an asshole, so I also broke that cycle)! My heart has been freed to beat strong and proud once again, and nothing compares to how I feel right now. I will say this, because I always feel the need to clarify, I am not in love, just a small crush that I’m leaning into because it’s been a while since I’ve been able to enjoy this feeling.

Last night, I listened to “Lucky” by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat for the first time in a while, and I was able to do so without feeling anything ill. I will always love him and think of him fondly, but I am finally able to wake up and be okay. Hands will still be weird, and that’s probably my b, but it will all be okay. My tomorrow finally came!

I hope all of you have a wonderful weekend, and keep pushing through the shit! I love you all, and will see you soon!

A Fresh Start

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It’s been a while, and I’ve missed you all dearly. I’m sorry for taking such long breaks between posts, but no longer. I have a lot going on but November will be the month where I get my shit together.

The past couple of months have been exciting, stressful, depressing, and draining. I’ve gone through a roller coaster of emotions, and I’m currently in a questioning anger mood. Recently, I learned I was betrayed and blindsided by someone in my life. I had my mental state questioned and it derailed me for a moment, but then I looked back on every interaction and realized that I had fallen into the same fucking pattern that I had been in before. I’m done. I can’t keep being someone’s pawn and I’m not going to. I’m not going to be questioned when I’m dissociating or have manipulation attempts made when my mania hits. I’m standing on my own two feet, and I’ll start kicking and fighting back if I have to.

This month, I’m turning around and starting a new relationship with myself. I deserve to be happy and excited, and the bullshit that keeps popping up is taking away from what I want and need to focus on. I finally got to act on a dream on mine, and I’m going all in on it. I’m so proud of what I’ve accomplished this year and to let people and life get in the way of my path is just ridiculous.

So, to get this fresh start going, I’ve started to really clean up my stream and make it look the way I want it, and I’ve even made merch! Everything on that front is going so well which motivates me to keep going. I’ve been touched by so many of you who have supported me and I want to continue to give back to all of you.

I’ve also started writing my book again. I have the introduction and first chapter done, and I would like to have it finished by late February/early March. I want to introduce you guys to who I am when I’m not playing games or writing posts like this.

Another part of moving forward is the podcast will be coming back in December! I started getting overwhelmed with everything I started so the podcast got put on the backburner, but it is making it’s return! I’m going to be bringing new people on and it’s going to be a blast!

I’m so excited to have the opportunity to do this, and nothing is going to get in the way anymore! I love you all so much, and I hope you are all as excited as I am for this year to end! If you want to hang out or get updates more frequently, head on over to my discord! It’s not the busiest server, but we have fun!

Alright, time for me to get my day started and I will see you all soon!

We’re So Close!

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Hey guys! Figured I would drop by and see how everyone is doing! I know I haven’t been writing a lot lately, and I’m sorry about that. I’ve been very busy with the podcast and streaming! Both are going very well and that’s all thanks to you guys!

I have done 7 streams so far on Twitch, and have managed to get 39 followers, which is absolutely amazing! In the picture above shows everything I need to make affiliate and I am happy to share that I only need 11 more followers until I reach my goal of making affiliate! I also have a side quest of getting 100 followers on Twitch by July 23, 2020, which is in 8 days!

I am so excited about this journey, and I finally feel like I found my place in this crazy world. I want to thank you guys so much for supporting and standing by me through this, and I’m not just talking about the recent additions to this project. For those of you who have following me since 2018 on this blog, thank you for giving me the confidence to keep going and showing me I have a voice. It’s not always easy to keep pushing and overcoming, but all of you made it worth it.

If you guys do want to check out my stream, you can find me Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays at https://twitch.tv/rooplixoo! I’m still working on setting a solid schedule for those days, so just bare with me; those of you who know me know I struggle keeping a schedule with my ADHD and life. I mainly stream Minecraft, but I do a bunch of goofy things and generally have a good time. I will either make a page on here with links to everything, or I’ll just add it to the About page (I haven’t decided yet).

Another announcement I have is that I am in the middle of re-branding, so you will be seeing changes across all of my platforms in the coming weeks, so I hope you guys enjoy the new look! I’m excited to see how everything turns out!

Well, that’s it for now! Once again, I love you all and thank you so much! Have a good day/night/time of existence, and I will talk to you guys on Thursday!