Tag: change

As the Hours Pass

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I have spent many hours on the little black book. I didn’t even realize what time it is until I realized my playlist started over… twice! I can’t wait to be done setting up this journal so I can finally use it.

Yesterday, I managed to get all of the dye off my face, but my hands are still a nice shade of blue. I ended up leaving the house, though, to get dinner with my mom! We had a great time and we ended up stopping at the little convenience store before heading home. There, a very kind woman complimented my hair and we spent about 5 minutes talking about hair dye!

I’m so happy I have found the energy to keep going. I’m even happier that I’m enjoying music again, and singing until my vocal cords are sore. I still have a long way to go, but I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. It was definitely worth the wait!

The Secret

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Most girls have little, black dresses…. I have a little, black notebook. I have a plethora of notebooks, but this one is special; this one will hold secrets that cannot be revealed as of yet.

The past few weeks have been a roller coaster, some bad and a lot of good. I am getting back on track with my life, and everything seems bright again. My entire perspective has changed; it scares me, but in the best way possible. The past few weeks have given me hope for my future, and it’s truly amazing.

I wish I could shout from the roof tops about how I’m feeling, but that would generate noise complaints, and it’s being kept under wraps for now… which is where the notebook comes into play! I will be writing everything down and keeping track of it all so when everything has settled down, I can write about it here.

At this point, only a few people know what’s going on in my life, which I really like. I feel like a spy on a top-secret mission. I’m so excited for this mission, just thinking about it puts a smile on my face.

Every girl has her secrets, it keeps the mystery alive!

Confidence Boost

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Today was a good day for my confidence. I absolutely love my blue hair and how it makes me feel. Even though my nails and skin match my hair, I feel like I can take on anything that’s thrown at me!

When I was waiting for the dye to take, I had a lot of time to think about everything that has happened over the past few weeks. I thought about everyone in my life and how they have helped me grow into who I am today. I am so grateful for everyone who I hold close to my heart and I can’t picture my life without them.

Since we’re on the note of being happy and grateful for what we have, I reached 41 followers! I am beyond excited to know that this project is continuing to grow and that you guys enjoy my writing. Blogging has always been an outlet for me, and I’m so happy that I get to share it with so many people!

I hope everyone had a wonderful day!

Deep Blue

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I’m now a blue-head girl! I decided to dye my hair blue again because it’s my favorite color, and what better color to get back into dying my hair than blue! I also dyed part of my face, my hands, and parts of my arms!

My hair is still wet, but when it dries I will definitely be taking a ton of photos. I ended up using Splat hair dye, which I haven’t used since high school, but I am extremely happy with how it turned out.

Now, with blue hands, I am off to do some work!

Blondes Have More Fun

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The first step of changing my hair has been taken! I covered my head in bleach and now I’m blonde (again)! I won’t be for long, though, for tomorrow I will be adding the mystery color! The only thing I can say is that I’ve had this color before and I’m very excited to revisit it.

I’ve truly missed the art of dyeing my hair, and I’m happy that I’m back at it! I find it strangely relaxing, and with my anxiety, I could stand to do more things that relax me. I’m not going to lie and say I have the toughest life, but I tend to get overwhelmed which causes me to stress about everything.

Outside of bleaching my hair, I got to spend the entire day with my lovely mom! We went to breakfast and just hung out. I love spending time with my mom, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

I hope everyone had a great start to their week, and here’s to surviving Monday!

Another Change

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Gather ’round everyone and I’ll tell you the story of my hair. It all started when I was 13 years old and my mom was dying her hair. She asked me if I wanted some highlights, and from that moment, I was hooked!

I went from copper blonde to black, and almost every color of the rainbow. For the past few months, I was tired of always having to cover up my roots. Being a natural brunette is a pain in the ass when you want to go lighter. I, however, need to switch it up. I’m addicted to putting on a ratty shirt and putting chemicals in my hair.

I’m going to be bleaching my hair today, but I’m not going for blonde. I already know what color I’m going, but I’m going to keep that under wraps until it’s done!

I’m really excited to be getting back into destroying my hair and standing out. I realized that I need to be myself, and having crazy hair is apart of that.

Happy Monday everyone!

New Look

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I got a haircut, and I couldn’t be happier! I’ve been needing to get one for a while, and originally it was only going to be a trim. I decided to get a bit more taken off the ends, and now I have short hair. I am extremely happy with how it turned out, and I can’t wait to start messing around with different styles… and maybe a few colors, too!

I also went to the doctor’s today, which I have been dreading for a while. I have never liked going to the doctor, though, I don’t think anyone does. I was extremely nervous and completely worried for nothing. I have absolutely nothing (new) wrong with me, and I actually enjoyed the check up. Everyone was super nice and understanding.

Overall, today was good. I got to spend the day with my mom, I got a new look and a great new doctor. I also had a ton of food for dinner, and I’m slipping in and out of a food coma.

I hope everyone has a fantastic and relaxing weekend!

Waiting for Tomorrow

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I truly can’t kick the nausea, but I did figure out what’s happening for Valentine’s Day. On top of wearing my pajamas all day, I will be watching videos, napping, working and eating… so the usual. I will enjoy my time and maybe I’ll fall in love with myself all over again!

As much as I dislike the idea of people having the one big date on the same day, there is something appealing about it. I mean, it doesn’t have to be some huge amazing night, it can be simple. The whole point is to spend time with each other, right?

I hope everyone sleeps well and wakes up on Valentine’s Day with a smile. No matter how you feel about the holiday, just try to love yourself as much as you can. Give yourself flowers and candy, make a nice dinner or even take yourself out. You deserve it!

Flu Season

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I was productive, and then I wasn’t. I took a short nap because I could barely keep my eyes open and I woke up extremely nauseous. It’s been like this for about 5 hours now. It’s almost like I’m motion sick and I need everything to stop spinning.

Even though I’m sick, something great happened. Two years ago, I was in a car accident that really messed me up (I will probably go into details in another post later on once everything settles down). Today, my case was settled and I couldn’t be happier. It has been a long road for me and my family, but it’s finally done with and we can move on.

I’ve looked back on the past couple years and I realized that life doesn’t get better or worse, it just changes. There are good parts and bad parts, but that’s just how life is. No matter what happens, it’s just a learning experience.

I hope I will start feeling better soon so I can keep pushing forward. I will get back into doing fun things and taking pictures so these posts don’t seem so empty!

Happy end of Monday everyone!

At the End of the Day

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At the end of the day, the sun sets and everyone gets settled in for the night. They night pray or send goodnight texts to their loved ones. I don’t. I say goodnight to my mother and I head up to my room where I lay in bed staring at the ceiling. Sometimes I watch videos or talk to people, but I mostly just stay in bed thinking.

Last night I thought about what I wanted to do with my life. As of late, I gave up on my plans and I honestly don’t know what I’m doing outside of working and this. I don’t know what I want anymore, and I feel lost. I’m trying to stay positive and think about the quiet snowfall I witnessed the other morning, but I’m torn inside about what to do.

Whether it’s my depression talking or this is how I truly feel, I honestly don’t know. I’m trying to stay focused on what I need to do but I’m struggling more and more. It could be the weather and I’m not getting enough sunlight, or maybe it’s something I’ve yet to realize. All I know is that I need to figure it out and keep it from eating me alive before I know what it is.

Depression, in short, is a fickle bitch. I’m starting to fight back, but it’s a long battle ahead. I just need to focus on the end goal and that everything has to get better.