Me – Page 18 – The Change

It’s Something

Published on January 25, 2018 by RooLeave a comment

I couldn’t find my art supplies! So, in the meantime, pictured above is the place holder. It was created on a free logo maker website. There is good news, though! I finally came up with the perfect logo that will not only cover everything I want to do, but it’s simplistic! I also have all the supplies to make it! I do really like the alien, but not for this project!

I will be staying up again to get the real logo done and have everything prepped for Monday morning. Starting next week, I will be exercising, working, studying and everything else I need to do. I will be running on two schedules: my blog schedule and my daily schedule. They will intertwine and I will probably get lost if I don’t follow it. This weekend will be spent putting the final touches on my blogging schedule and preparing for the new week.

Tomorrow, I think I’m going to break out my flat-iron and see how straight I can get my hair. I have wavy/curly, thick hair which has been dyed my natural color. I used to be able to get my hair pin-straight in high school, but I got lazy and stopped caring about what people thought of my hair. I think it will be fun to see what I look like now with straightened hair, and how long it actually is. I’ve been trying to grow my hair out again because I miss my long hair, but I’m starting to become impatient!

I’m happy that I’m moving forward and up, and I hope I keep moving in this direction. I know there will be obstacles along the way, but I hope I will be able to get through them a bit smoother now.

Search and Rescue: Art Supplies

Published on January 25, 2018January 25, 2018 by RooLeave a comment

One thing I can’t stand is when I don’t know where something is. Today was going to be the day that I tried to make my logo by hand (didn’t like how the ones on my computer were turning out), but now today will be spent locating my art supplies that got lost in the hustle and bustle. I will describe what I plan on doing if I find my stuff!

I have ink and a plate that I can use to pull prints, as well as tons of calligraphy stuff. I thought I would try my hand at pulling a print and use that as the logo. If that doesn’t work, I will then move onto watercolor painting and using my paint markers. Then, if all else fails, I will be using one of my favorite painting techniques I learned in kindergarten!

When I was in kindergarten, my mom signed my up for an art class. We did everything from painting to coloring, but one day we did something that changed how I thought art was created. She took a shoe box, put a piece of paper in the bottom on it, dipped a ball in paint and put it in the box, put the lid on the box and shook it around! I thought it was so cool! I haven’t done it since, but I have plenty of shoe boxes and paint!

I’m going to be putting my frustrated energy into finding my supplies and making my logo, as well as doing work. I got up a little late today, but the sun is still out so I can still get things done!

The Final Draft

Published on January 24, 2018 by RooLeave a comment

I had a productive day… in the sense that it wasn’t very productive at all! I walked around the house and thought about everything I need to do during the day, while I also neglect most of those things.

I start a bunch of projects, and then I get overwhelmed and do nothing. From there, I get anxiety because nothing is getting done, and I get depressed; it’s a fucked up domino effect that needs to change. I feel like I’m lost in a sea of to-do’s and I’m either going to sink or swim… so I’ll try swimming!

When I started Rooplixoo, it was for the sole purpose of getting through all my makeup. Now, it’s taken on a mind of its own because I keep adding new goals. New goals are never a problem, except when they start to stack up and you end up watching 10 hours of videos and reach the end of the day feeling empty. I’m putting my foot down, because what I’m doing isn’t working anymore.

When I was younger, my mom created this beautiful board titled “The Eye Chart”. I am legally blind in my left eye, so when I was younger, the doctors told my parents that I had to wear these stick on eye patches and do exercises to strengthen the vision in my left eye. Now, not much has changed in the sense that I am a stubborn, pain-in-the-ass that marches to a different beat, but I do enjoy rewards and prizes. My mom created this chart and at the end of each week, I would get a prize. I think I got through about 2 weeks before it was retired, but I still continued to fill in all the days with stickers!

I will probably be up all night because I took a nap today, so tonight I will be putting my board together and working. Up above is a draft of what will go on the board. I have started so many things, that I need to remind myself to brush my teeth! I’m not proud of that, but the first step is admitting there’s a problem! I feel if I can get myself on a schedule and stick to it, I will either start to feel better or be so distracted that I won’t have time to feel bad.

I know it’s impossible to plan out every single day and have a perfect routine, but if I nail it at least 4 days out of the week, I’ll be beyond proud of myself. At the end of the day, I have to live with myself. If I have to basically recreate The Eye Chart and reward myself for being a functional human being to get on track, then so be it!

Here’s to yet another new beginning!

What to Do

Published on January 24, 2018 by RooLeave a comment

Today, I will not be doing makeup because my face needs a break from the makeup I used at my dad’s. I don’t know what caused the allergic reaction, but my eyelids are still really dry and itchy. Instead, I will be getting everything finished!

I have way too many loose ends because I like to start 80 things at once, so today I will be knocking out a lot of it! When I woke up today, I had this huge burst of energy and I want to do everything! My plate will be filled with a bullet journal, a daily routine board, work, school and a logo design! I haven’t figured out the order I will do everything in just yet, but I guess I’ll find out soon enough! I have also been neglecting my Instagram, so I need to start keeping up with that, too!

Today is the day that I get my life back on track and try to feel better about waking up every morning. I’m taking back control (again) and I don’t plan on letting go!

Losing Momentum

Published on January 23, 2018 by RooLeave a comment

Yesterday was an experience that I never want to have again. I am allergic to something in that makeup bag, so I can’t do my makeup while I’m here until I get better makeup.

I get very panicky when I go somewhere, even if it’s just for a few days. This time, I forgot my notebook for school and I didn’t bring enough work with me to truly utilize my time. The good thing is that I remembered to bring my laptop and the charging cable, so I can still write on this blog.

In the past, I’ve tried using lists so I remember everything I need to bring with me, but that never worked because I would always forget to put something on the list. My boyfriend has sat in calls with me multiple times asking me if I had everything I needed, and I still fell short. I try to prepare ahead of time, but I’m starting to realize that I just have to go with the flow and try not to worry when I leave something behind.

Since I don’t know what I’m doing today, I guess I’ll start working soon and go from there. The only exciting thing about not knowing what I’m doing is that the second post for today will be a surprise!

Into the Weekend

Published on January 19, 2018 by RooLeave a comment

I had a good Friday. I got everything together to set up a daily routine and actually started planning it out! From watching videos to reading articles on how to stick to a schedule, I finally know how I’m going to go about this.

Tonight will be spent creating my daily routine board which will hang on the wall by my stairs. It will be extremely details, listing everything I need to do. From brushing my teeth to blogging and everything in between, there will be a place for it on my board! Now, why does a 22 year-old need a reminded for brushing her teeth? I don’t, but to stay organized throughout my day, it needs to be on the board.

This board is probably going to be a mess of extensive color-coding and miscellaneous tasks, but that’s what I need to stay on track. I have come to the conclusion that I have taken on way to many things and I have started to become overwhelmed. I know I can get everything done that I need to get done, I just need to organize it right.

I hope everyone has a wonderful and relaxing weekend. I will be spending mine finishing off my routine board and sprucing up the website! I can’t wait to come back Monday refreshed and ready to go!

Tired Thoughts

Published on January 18, 2018 by RooLeave a comment

Today, I sat in bed, took care of my pets and took a nap. My mental state isn’t 100% because, on one hand, I feel like I did nothing; on the other hand, I needed to step away and just do nothing.

My life, like many others, is me standing in the middle of a never-ending shit storm holding onto a tiny ball of good. No matter what happens, I hold onto that ball in hopes that one day the storm will clear up and the ball can grow.

If I had to take anything away from today, it’s that the storm that surrounds me is not something I can control, because a majority of the storm is caused by the world around me. I can, however, control that tiny ball of good. I can’t control how people will react or the unexpected, but I can try to maneuver these obstacles with grace.

I’ve come to the realization that I can’t take on every single problem because someone asks me or expects me to. I can’t keep helping people by not helping myself; in the end, I have to live with myself and I am tired of living in a stressed, worn out body.

It will take some time for me to work on this; old habits die hard. As long as I keep working on it, though, it will become easier because I will become stronger.

Tomorrow, I will be writing out my full routine and start fresh Monday morning. I will make time to do everything: makeup, nails, school, work and exercise. If I want a better me, I need to make it.

Keeping it Short

Published on January 17, 2018January 17, 2018 by RooLeave a comment

This is going to be a short post, I’m really not feeling well right now and I need to lie down.

I did my nails in the color “soft pink”. It actually went on really well, and it would have definitely looked nice if I actually knew what I was doing! I really like how fast this polish dries and it doesn’t smell too strong. I wouldn’t say it’s the best nail polish I’ve used, but it’s definitely in my top 3 favorites!

If I wasn’t so nauseous, I would write more. I’m going to see if a nap will help and then I will start doing some work when I get up! I hope everyone has an amazing day/night!

An Interesting Day

Published on January 15, 2018 by Roo3 Comments

Today was an interesting one, to say the least. After publishing my first post of the day, I immediately felt sick, but I powered through to get this done! Above is the before and after of my makeup, which took me about 2 hours to do because I kept spacing out!

After my makeup was finally finished, I went into my closet to get the dress which wasn’t where I thought it was. I didn’t see it on my garment rack at first which lead me to search the back room downstairs. I was becoming frustrated, so I took a deep breath and looked in my closet one more time, and it was staring me right in the face! I have no idea how I missed it the first time, but I’ll blame it on me being sick.

Then, once I had my makeup done and my dress on, it was time for the photo shoot, but what’s a photo shoot without any problems? I don’t know! When I went to turn my camera on, the battery was dead. It’s winter so I didn’t have time to change the battery before the sun went down. I just used my phone.

I decided since it was so nice out today, that I would take my pictures outside.

I was absolutely freezing! I like how the pictures turned out, but never again without pants and a jacket! I also thought it would be a good idea to wear 4-inch heeled boots with ice and snow on the ground! I’m just having an off day, but I got it done! I’m really happy with how my makeup turned out today, especially my lipstick; I guess lip liner is great at keeping lipstick in its place!

Once I finished taking the photos, I ran inside, got back into my pajamas, wiped my lipstick off and took a nap. I love sleeping when it’s snowing or raining, I find it very relaxing to watch.

I really hope I’m not sick, but I know that I am. I’m just not sure if it’s something I caught, or my new medication. I’m sure I’ll find out soon enough! For now, though, I’m going to try to get some more sleep! I don’t really have anything planned for tomorrow, but I’m pretty good at thinking on my feet!

A Throwback

Published on January 15, 2018January 15, 2018 by RooLeave a comment

Well, it’s Monday again and I have a full week ahead of me. I finally have an idea for a logo, and a few video ideas, too! I’m happy that I use the weekends as days to plan and relax, it helps a lot. I actually missed writing here everyday!

Over the weekend, I decided to look at my Facebook memories and this picture came up. This was taken 5 years ago when I was a senior in high school, and was posing in the kitchen the night before my senior pictures were going to be taken. I absolutely love that dress, and I wish I knew where that hat was. Today, I will be doing my makeup, putting on that dress and doing a mini-photo shoot! I don’t exactly know how I will take the photos without all of them being selfies, but I will figure it out!

Another thing that happened this weekend is I learned a very important lesson: don’t go out of your way for people who wouldn’t do the same for you. I have done this a lot, and always feel let down in return. Any relationship is a two-way street, and they should be equal. So, my new rule is that when they give an inch, I’ll give an inch. They pull back, I pull back. As long as I’m happy with myself, that’s all that matters! My energy is going to be focused on me and the ones I care about.

The girl in the picture up there had fun, and that’s what I aim to do from now on!

I’m excited to see how the photo shoot turns out, so I guess I have to get started!