Another Change

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Gather ’round everyone and I’ll tell you the story of my hair. It all started when I was 13 years old and my mom was dying her hair. She asked me if I wanted some highlights, and from that moment, I was hooked!

I went from copper blonde to black, and almost every color of the rainbow. For the past few months, I was tired of always having to cover up my roots. Being a natural brunette is a pain in the ass when you want to go lighter. I, however, need to switch it up. I’m addicted to putting on a ratty shirt and putting chemicals in my hair.

I’m going to be bleaching my hair today, but I’m not going for blonde. I already know what color I’m going, but I’m going to keep that under wraps until it’s done!

I’m really excited to be getting back into destroying my hair and standing out. I realized that I need to be myself, and having crazy hair is apart of that.

Happy Monday everyone!

New Look

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I got a haircut, and I couldn’t be happier! I’ve been needing to get one for a while, and originally it was only going to be a trim. I decided to get a bit more taken off the ends, and now I have short hair. I am extremely happy with how it turned out, and I can’t wait to start messing around with different styles… and maybe a few colors, too!

I also went to the doctor’s today, which I have been dreading for a while. I have never liked going to the doctor, though, I don’t think anyone does. I was extremely nervous and completely worried for nothing. I have absolutely nothing (new) wrong with me, and I actually enjoyed the check up. Everyone was super nice and understanding.

Overall, today was good. I got to spend the day with my mom, I got a new look and a great new doctor. I also had a ton of food for dinner, and I’m slipping in and out of a food coma.

I hope everyone has a fantastic and relaxing weekend!

Honesty

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In all walks of life, it is always best to be open and honest. No one is perfect, I know I’m sure as hell not. Sometimes we get afraid, or we feel like we can’t say what we really mean. Pictured above is me with the woman who instilled that in me. She is the most beautiful and caring woman I know, and I’m proud to call her my mom. Isn’t she stunning?

Over the years, my mom has given me the strength to be myself, and enough knowledge to make me extremely stubborn. We’re Italian, so being hard-headed is embedded in our DNA. With being stubborn, I have learned to fight not only for what I think is right, but to stand up for myself.

Recently, I was faced with something that absolutely destroyed me: the loss of trust. Normally, I would just leave and move on, but I decided to sit on it and figure out how I was going to deal with it. Over the past week, I’ve had some time to reflect on everything that happened and come to terms with everything. I haven’t really changed my view on it, but I’m no longer angry or hurt by what took place. It took every ounce of strength my mom gave to get through this.

I want to thank my mom for being there for me, no matter how awful I was being. From name calling to the terrible twos that she’s still trying to get me to grow out of, I am amazed her hair isn’t white! I hope she knows how much I love her, and that even though I’m getting older, I will always need my mom. I will always need to hear her say “cool beans”, and to tell her terrible jokes which I love.

I love you, mama!

A Rose by any Other Name

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This morning I was going through my photos and reliving a lot of memories – some good, some bad. While going through all of these pictures, I got to see how much I’ve grown over the past few years… and how many times I changed my hair color.

I ended up seeing pictures from a lot of the darker days I had, followed by my brighter ones. Having the years laid out that way showed me that I have gotten through so much already and that I will continue to.

I’m not as fragile as I think I am, nor am I weak for having the feelings that I have. I need to start giving myself more credit and, once I do, I will be able to wake up every morning and know that everything will be okay.

How Romantic

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My morning was very relaxing and lighthearted, filled with videos and music. As the day moved into the afternoon, I was surprised with a beautiful candlelit lunch containing the healthiest of foods, because I deserve it. Am I the only one that craves fast food when they’re sick?

After I ate my meal fit for a queen, I did the only sensible thing: I watched Friends and took a nap on the couch with my kitties. By the time I woke up, my mom got home and I wish I could say I spent time with her, but I was so tired that I fell back asleep. She wanted me to go lie down in my room because it’s not good for me to sleep on the couch (I have back problems). Did I listen? Nope, why would I? Why would I listen to something that makes complete sense? No matter how old I get, she will always be my mom and I will always be stubborn. I love you, mama, and I’m sorry that I’m always a pain in the ass!

As the day comes to an end, I realized that I actually had a good Valentine’s Day. I never thought I would say this, but I actually don’t hate this day as much as I thought I did. I learned that not every holiday has to be this big event, it just needs to be fun. With that being said, I will never give up my big Italian Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Valentine’s Day, no matter what you did.

The Day is Here

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Happy Valentine’s Day, everyone! I hope everyone woke up to flowers and gifts… or your cats trying to smother you. I woke up to cats. My mom gave me a beautiful card, which truly made my day!

Today will probably be spent going around the house eating, and having a few drinks because I’m an adult. I will try to take this day at face value, but I’m kind of looking forward to tomorrow where all the candy will be on sale.

I hope I treat myself right today and get myself everything I want! I think I’ve earned it. Today is a day about love, so why not love myself?

Waiting for Tomorrow

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I truly can’t kick the nausea, but I did figure out what’s happening for Valentine’s Day. On top of wearing my pajamas all day, I will be watching videos, napping, working and eating… so the usual. I will enjoy my time and maybe I’ll fall in love with myself all over again!

As much as I dislike the idea of people having the one big date on the same day, there is something appealing about it. I mean, it doesn’t have to be some huge amazing night, it can be simple. The whole point is to spend time with each other, right?

I hope everyone sleeps well and wakes up on Valentine’s Day with a smile. No matter how you feel about the holiday, just try to love yourself as much as you can. Give yourself flowers and candy, make a nice dinner or even take yourself out. You deserve it!

Valentine’s Day Eve

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Well, it’s that time of year again. Love fills the air and everyone runs out to buy anything with a heart on it. I have never really been into Valentine’s Day, especially after I got to a grade in school where there were no in-class parties.

This year, I’m having a pajama day, party of one. I honestly don’t know what I will do outside of wearing pajamas, but I’m sure I’ll come up with a few things throughout the day. Maybe I’ll call a few friends, or play a game.

To anyone who celebrates Valentine’s Day, I hope you have an amazing day no matter how you plan on spending it. To those who don’t celebrate, however, have a pajama day with me! Maybe if enough people wear pajamas on Valentine’s Day, we can get it changed to Pajama Day.

I hope all of you have amazing plans for tomorrow, pajamas or otherwise!

Flu Season

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I was productive, and then I wasn’t. I took a short nap because I could barely keep my eyes open and I woke up extremely nauseous. It’s been like this for about 5 hours now. It’s almost like I’m motion sick and I need everything to stop spinning.

Even though I’m sick, something great happened. Two years ago, I was in a car accident that really messed me up (I will probably go into details in another post later on once everything settles down). Today, my case was settled and I couldn’t be happier. It has been a long road for me and my family, but it’s finally done with and we can move on.

I’ve looked back on the past couple years and I realized that life doesn’t get better or worse, it just changes. There are good parts and bad parts, but that’s just how life is. No matter what happens, it’s just a learning experience.

I hope I will start feeling better soon so I can keep pushing forward. I will get back into doing fun things and taking pictures so these posts don’t seem so empty!

Happy end of Monday everyone!

A Secret Project

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This weekend, I decided to start working on my secret plan. I had a lot happen and the only thing that will really help is a secret project. I am honestly feeling extremely lost, but I hope that this will get me through it all.

My weekend consisted of laughing, crying, sleeping and watching too many videos. It was probably one of the roughest weekends I’ve had in a while, but I survived and that’s what matters.

I honestly don’t know what I will be doing outside of this mystery project, but everything will be okay. I hope by the end of the day, I will know everything I need to do and how to handle the things I don’t want to do.